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December 31st, 2007


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02:55 pm - Winding down 2007, headed into 2008


I actually started meeting some pretty specific goals from last year. Not so much because I put in more effort, as because a couple of unexpected changes made these things easier to implement in my life.

For one, I started getting up very early (6am) to go walking with two of my roommates, and that left enough time when I got back to have some quiet time with God every weekday morning, prayer and Bible study both.

And while I wasn’t as rigid about keeping my Monday and Wednesday nights sequestered for writing, I did much better than at any previous attempts at such a thing, and rediscovered my ability to focus when I kick distractions to the curb.

In terms of life goals, I’m not sure whether did well at meeting them or not. A few of them faded into the background because this year was so different from my expectations.

My roommate Amanda and I moved into a house with two other gals, so there were many changes in our routines. We met many new people, and while I found some of the process to be completely overwhelming, it was also great. Especially now that we’ve started to settle in a bit.

2007 kicked off with a bang, in terms of change: I was asked to step into a leadership role at my church (in Stephen Ministries), something that I haven’t done before, and they even financed the week of training I needed, and the travel expenses to Corpus Christi, Texas. Leadership has never been a comfortable place for me, so this year was full of times when I was nervous or flat-out terrified, of learning how to jump in and run things. That’s something I decided to stop doing back in junior high, when I realized how selfish that sort of thing often is, and how my bossiness hurt people.

But that’s a danger of leadership regardless of whether you’re a selfish person or not. That’s also something I came to understand (and at least try to accept) this year.

Something else new in 2007: I was asked out by 3 different guys (and a 4th, random coffeeshop guy, asked for my phone number), something that had never happened before. This is cause for celebration! *g* Unfortunately, all of them (from the guy I’d met twice to the friend I still have) are not Christians–yet. This was cause for much angst and frustration, as a sharing of the center of my life is my one true non-negotiable in a relationship.

It was also the cause of a lot of thinking, of revisiting the reasons that I hold the faith I do, and of finding new ways to articulate those reasons, to myself and to others. In a way, it’s been wonderful.

--To learn to stand on my own two feet, without fearing what old friends or people from my old church may think, or what my non-Christian friends may think. I am not ashamed of my God, or of what he has taught me, and I need to remember I'm an adult and living before him on my own.

That was one of my “life ambitions” last year, and I think I may have made some progress, but to be honest, I image that one is going to take a long time to truly be able to live. And I am so not there yet.

Last, but not least in any way, I did learn again, and more, that God is trustworthy, that He is near me, that He has plans for me. Even in learning all these new things, and being nervous and anxious about them, I’ve had a sense that the fear is just fear–it hasn’t had the hold on me that it once did. And that is cause enough for praise, without all the other blessings in my life right now.

What’s next, Lord? Whatever it is, make me ready. I want to run with You into the next adventure!




Specific goals:

–Finish my CSI spec and submit it to the Disney Writing Fellowship (subject to the effects of the strike, of course).

–Finish at least a full first draft of my fandom murder mystery script; keep writing regularly, and pushing the focus to profic.

–Continue/restart the walking and quiet time schedule for my mornings, even if I have to be the convincing voice to my roommates this time around.

–Attempt to visit whitemartyr in Scotland!

Life Ambitions:

--Keep a mind and heart open to learning. There's a lot I don't know, and many things I need to be informed about, if only to be able to articulate my own position on certain issues.

--To look at each person I meet as a person, not a job or annoyance or problem. To see them in all their terror and potential, to always be ready to see what is beautiful in them.

--To learn to stand on my own two feet, without fearing what old friends or people from my old church may think, or what my non-Christian friends may think. I am not ashamed of my God, or of what he has taught me, and I need to remember I'm an adult and living before him on my own.

--To learn again, and more, what I learned last year: that I can let go of pain and loneliness and fear, and the nerves of leadership, because He really is trustworthy. And He’s the one who put me in this place, and He is my adequacy.


Happy New Year, everyone! See you in 2008! :-)

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From:tomh1138
Date:January 1st, 2008 04:17 pm (UTC)
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I don't think the Disney Fellowship (or the other contests/fellowships) are affected by the strike. I wasn't sure myself, but I checked the website and there doesn't seem to be any indication that it's not happening. I think Jane Espenson (in her blog) said it was definitely still on as well.

Keeping the fellowships going seems to be a smart idea. First, the companies know that the strike will end one way or another eventually, and they're going to need to bring writers in at that point like they always do. Second, not being paid writers yet, we're not under the Guild's jurisdiction right now anyway. So we can write all the specs we want.

(Of course, I'm very much in support of writers' rights. But this isn't like crossing the picket line or something. Writing specs is perfectly legal and ethical.)

Espenson also pointed out the creative advantage we have right now. Most of the time, serialized shows' storylines are in constant flux and therefore hard to spec. But now they're all abruptly stopped "midseason" (without cliffhangers even, for many of them) and the strike's end is at some indefinite point in the future. So we can write an episode that takes place right "now" and still have it be current for some time.

Anyway. I wrote a short comedy film yesterday. It was my first "serious" writing in a while. I think I know a guy who might be willing to produce it. I'm motivated to write more this year. That's one of my prayerful goals.

And kudos to you on turning down non-Christian dates. Been there, done that. Not fun, at least in the immediate sense, but God still sees your choices and knows your heart.

May the Lord bless you abundantly in 2008! :)
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 2nd, 2008 06:15 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, I noticed that Jane said that the Fellowship appeared to be going forward. I'm just not sure whether that's guaranteed to continue; a lot of things seem to be in flux regarding the strike. God knows.

And I admit to rather liking the idea of being able to write a spec without being jossed out of the series' continuity a week from today. As much as I wish we were getting new episodes, that is one small benefit for us spec writers.
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From:tomh1138
Date:January 2nd, 2008 11:06 pm (UTC)
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"Jossed"? Did you just use Joss Whedon's name as an *adjective*? Meaning "watching a Joss Whedon-like plot twist that ruins my spec"? If so, I love it! :) I hope that makes its way into the English language.

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From:izhilzha
Date:January 3rd, 2008 01:24 am (UTC)
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I did use it that way, but the usage is not new; it began in the fanfic-writing corners of the Buffy fandom (because people would write fics over the summer hiatus, only for Joss to do something like introduce Dawn and make all the fics suddenly become Alternate Universe fics) and is now in use in fandoms that are not even Joss-related.

It's such a useful term! :-)
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From:fpb
Date:January 2nd, 2008 07:46 am (UTC)
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If you come to Scotland, take a detour south, and meet me in London. I will show you around and we can talk Harry Potter, Buffy, writing and religion. And if we find the time, we can visit Oxford or Canterbury, both of which I know well. Anyway, I would dearly like to meet you.
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 2nd, 2008 06:56 pm (UTC)
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What a lovely invitation! :-) If I do make it over there, I would definitely be planning a detour down to London, and it wouldn't be too difficult to meet up with you, I imagine. (I would most likely have my friend whitemartyr with me, since I shall be her guest.) Thank you; I should like to meet you as well.

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