May 1st, 2007
|09:23 am - So, the 2nd Annual Numb3rs Awards have posted the winners....|
...and once again, cliche and mediocrity rules in the world of fanfiction.
*sigh* I'm not saying this because I expected to win anything (if I thought any of my fics had a chance, it would have been the much-read, much-reviewed Superheroes). And I'm not surprised; Numb3rs fandom is young, full of young fans, young/new writers, and very much enjoying the more cliche forms of fan fiction.
Given some of the stuff I read when I was newly in The Sentinel fandom, I can't really judge that. :-)
There were some deserving awards given out, to be sure. Celadon's Collateral Damage won Best Drama. This was one of the gems I found while reading the nominations--a case story with h/c and a long recovery period which didn't bore me at all. And one heck of amazing "hero" moment for Don.
Despite the fact that I'm not a 3rdgal fan, she's definitely one of the most prolific authors the fandom has, and the Best Author wasn't misplaced for her in that sense.
I'll go back to lurking in my corner of the fandom now, and write somre more unpopular but well-crafted fic.
Current Mood: disappointed
I am so, so with you on this.
And it's stupid, really, but this on top of having to re-write my resume . . . I'm in the mood today that says "I'm boring. My writing is boring. I've never written a resume that's gotten me a job, and I've never written a story that's received wide-read recognition. I think I'll curl up and go to sleep."
Hey, at least you have fans in China. ;-)
No, I know how you feel. It's not a pleasant headspace to be in.
How long has it been since you wrote up your resume? I bet you have more to put on it now, in terms of skill and experience, than you did back then. It just might get you a job this time. (And may your day be blessed in spite of this.)
::hugs:: Wide-read recognition is as much about networking, self-promotion, and feeding the dominant paradigm as it is about good writing. Which is not to say that being widely read means you're not good--I know several people who are both; but not being widely read certainly doesn't mean you're bad or boring.
Let's see; there were four stories in the category I was up for. I knew which one was going to win, and it definitely wasn't the cleverest, or the best written. It was the one that pushed the most squee buttons. ::shrug:: I don't mind not being widely acknowledged, as long as the people whose writing I admire think I'm doing okay.
I'm glad Collateral Damage was recognized, though; I thought it was one of the good ones.
But both of you had some of the best stories in the running, and we should all feel good about what we've accomplished. And I'm a little excited about the extra hundred hits on my site. :) Now let's just get back to work and have some things worth nominating next year. ;-)
:-) Thanks for the hugs. I guess I know that recognition is based on networking and self-promotion (gee, this could apply to my resume situation as well), but I've always felt really . . . strange . . . about tooting my own horn when it comes to my fic. I guess I'd hoped that the quality of my work would speak for itself.
And oh, do I know what you mean about the dominant paradigm and squee buttons. I'm toying off and on with a major h/c angsty thing, just to see if I can do it, and it really, really doesn't feel right.
I was very disappointed to see that your x-over didn't win, because as I've said before, you totally sold me on it, and it was fun.
I think the quality of one's work does speak for itself, once it gets read by people who value quality. I just don't think that awards in a young fandom are necessarily the place it's going to show.
And I'm glad you liked _Apparition_. Because when you told me that I made it work for you, that was me getting my award for it. :)