So it is very strange to find myself somewhat torn between two variations on a single story--the original way it seemed willing to go, and the darker road suggested by too much listening to Joseph Arthur's song Honey and the Moon.
I'm not going to talk too much about the fic itself; it is far from finished, and I expect a lot of poking from my betas even when I have a draft I can stand to let them see. Let me just say that this is the post-"The Janus List" Megan-centric fic I've mentioned previously, which has a substantial amount of Larry/Megan in it, and leave it at that.
"Honey and the Moon" is a low-key, melancholy song. When I paid attention to the first couple of lines, it immediately made me think of Larry and Megan, from Larry's pov:
Don't know why I'm still afraid
If you weren't real I would make you up
But the rest of the song really doesn't suit Larry, and I put it out of my mind.
Until I was working out a bit of this fic where Megan actually verbalizes her angst, and realized that what she's going through at this point (in canon, possibly, and certainly in this fic) is going to affect her ability to relate to Larry. At least a little.
And suddenly, despite the male vocals, I was hearing the song from Megan's pov, and it fit altogether too well.
I wish that I could follow through
I know that your love is true
As the sea
But right now
Everything you want is wrong,
And right now
All your dreams are waking up,
And right now
I wish I could follow you
To the shores
Where no one lives.
We're made out of blood and rust
Looking for someone to trust
I think that you came too soon
You're the honey and the moon
Up my night
I don't want to take their relationship there. At worst, I don't want to leave it there--I don't expect Megan to be quite that messed up in canon. The rough draft of the fic I have is more as I initially imagined it; I have so far successfully avoided being seduced into changing it by this lovely song.
But part of me really want to write the fic so that the song is its natural accompaniment.
Is that weird? *sigh*