Okay. *shaky breath*
That was a very strong episode, one of the strongest this season. It's tense, but not frantic; and the story is deeply emotionally fraught, not just for Dean, but for Bobby and for the old man who was once a 9-year-old boy who lost his mother. And for Cas, who can't stand that Dean has rejected him and his plan, and whose partnership with Crowley is fast headed downhill.
But mostly this is Dean's episode. Because it's about Lisa and Ben, and it almost seems like nothing brings out the true pathos of Dean's character like this particular arc. I absolutely 'ship Dean/Lisa, so it's hard for me to see it end this way, and yet... So much better than having them die, so much better than a final knowing rejection. I mean, I'm with Sam, this is one of the most horrible things Dean's ever been a party to, and yet I understand why he did it, and that it might be the best of several really bad options here.
Jensen can break my heart with a quirk of his lips. That shouldn't be possible. *cries a little*
Yikes. A lot happened here, and I'm not quite sure what I think about the whole.
Irrelevant thought: it would be nice, once in a while, to see someone's mascara run after being tortured or similar. :P
Okay: the Sam stuff? Was brilliant. Having to run around and put the pieces of himself together in his head? Oh hell yes. And I can't wait to see what he still has to deal with come next season. *hugs Sam fiercely*
It took me forever to recognize Robin, the girl in his head, as Deputy Jo Lupo, from Eureka. :)
I loved all the double-crossing. Clever, clever, all.
But I'm... Oh, Cas. I just... I didn't want to see him sink this low. I'm actually reminded of Babylon 5, of the Centauri emperor who declared himself a god. Not true theosis at all, but a pretending by means of power. And he doesn't even see that it is a pretending (unlike Raphael, who didn't care).
I'll definitely be watching next season, to see where this all goes. Especially Sam's arc, at the moment. <3 Sam.