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August 28th, 2005


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12:50 pm - *puddle of tears*
For my fellow SG-1 fans, this won't be hard to understand: I just watched the season 5 episode "Meridian".

I cried, and I mean tears streaming down my face (not that common with me), for about half of the episode, and I am not remotely exaggerating. *is emotionally exhausted*



I'm not sure where to start. I want to write fic or something, get some of this angst out of me properly...but the only character who seems to be vocal in my head right now is Jack, and he's so confused and grief-stricken that he's not making much sense at all. *hugs Jack*

I have to say that this was one of the best dismiss-a-character episodes I've seen in any of my fandoms. Star Trek never got it right, except with Spock in "The Wrath of Khan". The only time it really worked for me on Babylon 5 was with Marcus. This time, we got to go through the pain and struggle with the characters. It was yucky, and terribly sad, and frustrating, and real. Kudos to the creators, the writers, and oh my word, the actors.

Moments:

--Near the very beginning, when they come back through the 'Gate, and head straight for the infirmary. Daniel's still walking, apart from everyone else, and when the medical peeps show up, he ducks away from them. "Don't touch me!" Because he knows he's still radioactive.

--Jack's reaction to Hammond's plan to write a letter to the Colonans (sp?), in an attempt to get the naquadria in trade...without telling the truth about Daniel's actions. "They are a bunch of lying bastards!"

--Jack coming to visit the bandaged and dying Daniel in the infirmary. Telling him not that he's become fond of him, not that he cares about him, but that--more surprisingly and more importantly--that he has come to admire Daniel. That, coming from Jack, is...just wow. And Daniel doesn't seem quite able to believe it, though he accepts the words. (this is, btw, when I started crying)

--Teal'c visit to Daniel, and Sam's.... Their words of confidence and sorrow and regret and gratitude...and Daniel can't seem to hear them properly, either.

--I don't blame Daniel for leaving, at the end. After all, according to Jacob/Selmak, even if he could heal Daniel, he doubted he would be able to bring him back to full health. Better to die than live a half-life. But the reason he gives Jack, that he thinks he can do more this way (as he said before, that he thinks his life has been only a series of failures)...gah. I identify with that far too much. It's so easy to assume that one has not made a difference, if one hasn't made the difference that one wanted to make. Judged by our own standards, yes, to our despair. Heh--I identify with Jack, here, as well. Trying to convince someone of their own worth is one of the hardest things to do, ever.

--I'm impressed with Jonas for showing up and bringing them the naquadria.

One final note for now, before I go wash dishes for therapy (heh): I'm a little weirded out that this episode, as well as "Forever in a Day," were echoed in my fic Chaapa'ai, which I wrote before I'd seen either episode.

Current Mood: sadsad

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From:kerravonsen
Date:August 28th, 2005 09:05 pm (UTC)
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It's so easy to assume that one has not made a difference, if one hasn't made the difference that one wanted to make.

You've put your finger on something I hadn't realized before. Word!

I'm a little weirded out that this episode, as well as "Forever in a Day," were echoed in my fic Chaapa'ai, which I wrote before I'd seen either episode.
Really? Cool!

Well, who says that God only gives insight for Churchy things?
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From:izhilzha
Date:August 29th, 2005 02:39 am (UTC)
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I'm so glad someone appreciates my personally devestating flash of insight from this episode. Heh. It's nice to see something like that placed out before one in a fictional character; it makes it so much easier to see. *hugs Daniel*

I'm a little weirded out that this episode, as well as "Forever in a Day," were echoed in my fic Chaapa'ai, which I wrote before I'd seen either episode.

Really? Cool!

Well, who says that God only gives insight for Churchy things?


Word. :-) That's one of the reasons I keep writing fic.

Also, on further contemplation of this synchronicity, I came to the conclusion that I may have seen some pictures (or possibly a vid with clips) from "Meridian" prior to said fic-writing. However, I'm still rather astonished.
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From:scionofgrace
Date:August 29th, 2005 02:57 am (UTC)
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Oh, "Meridian"! Such a wonderfully sad episode! I didn't cry, but all your observations were along the lines of mine. I couldn't help thinking, too, that just as Jack of all of them had to make the conscious decision to let go, so for Daniel the only one who could really tell him to go on was Jack.

It's spelled "Kelownan," not that the Kelownans deserve to have their name spelled right, among other things. They are idiots who cause the SGC nothing but trouble.

I loved how Jack promised Daniel that sabotage would NOT be the last thing on his official record if he had anything to say about it.

Jonas is a great character. He totally got shafted by his world.

Have you watched Seasons Six and Seven, or should I keep my mouth shut about them?
From:(Anonymous)
Date:August 29th, 2005 04:05 am (UTC)
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I couldn't help thinking, too, that just as Jack of all of them had to make the conscious decision to let go, so for Daniel the only one who could really tell him to go on was Jack.

Yes. Oh, yes. The friendship between those two characters is often just a kind of quiet background, but here, oh, here it came to the fore. Those two really care about and rely on each other. *sob*

I loved how Jack promised Daniel that sabotage would NOT be the last thing on his official record if he had anything to say about it.

Yeah. Oh, man, don't make me start crying again. That was one perfect character moment.

Jonas is a great character. He totally got shafted by his world.

I'm surprised by the extent to which I am feeling the Jonas-love. I wonder if season 6 will help that or not.

Have you watched Seasons Six and Seven, or should I keep my mouth shut about them?

Shhh! No, I have not. Officially. I've caught a few reruns, and know some of the major plot events (like a certain de-ascension), but no details.
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From:izhilzha
Date:August 29th, 2005 04:06 am (UTC)
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d'oh. That was me.
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From:scionofgrace
Date:September 1st, 2005 03:08 am (UTC)
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Shhh! No, I have not. Officially. I've caught a few reruns, and know some of the major plot events (like a certain de-ascension), but no details.

::clamps hands over mouth:: I almost envy you, seeing this for the first time. Season Six isn't my favorite, but it's got some incredible episodes. Oh, and two words: oatmeal sweater.

I definitely feel the Jonas-love. Someone once described him as being like a puppy in his enthusiasm and innocence, and to me that's what makes him so darn charming.

Jack and Daniel's largely unspoken friendship is one of the best I've ever seen on TV. They don't just go around talking about their feelings (Jack would kill himself first, I imagine), but you just know how much they rely on each other, and how much they mean to each other. ::in a warning voice:: "Jack." "Daniel."

Waaaaay too many perfect character moments in Meridian to count.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:August 29th, 2005 07:13 pm (UTC)
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Wow, what can I say that hasn't been said? Yeah, this was a great episode.

-JD

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