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January 2nd, 2006


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09:19 am - 2006, resolutions, sort of
First let me just note that we are having a heavy-duty rainstorm in LA right now. And I do mean heavy. It woke me up this morning, the streets are turning into shallow rivers, and I bet you the folks in Malibu or otherwise on the coast are worrying about their houses sliding away....

I looked at my resolutions post from last year, and

...how many of them seemed to work themselves out. They weren't really formal, goal-setting things, but general larger goals: see people as themselves and seek the beauty in them, put God at the center of my life more and more, open up to the people I love, finish things I start.

In particular,

--To make a great effort to communicate more of myself to others...it is too easy to simply sit, observe, and listen. Why should I make it harder on my friends and family by attempting to bear all my burdens alone?

which I have not found easy for a long time. Due to choices, circumstances, and a couple of metaphorical slaps-upside-the-head from a good friend, I have started learning how to do that. Thanks be to God.




A couple of these are specific goals:

--Finish at least a full first draft of my murder mystery screenplay "Second Sight."

--Find a way to get more physical exercise.

--Get involved in an intercessory prayer group, preferably Hollywood-focused or LA-focused.

And others are, again, general life directions I need to focus on:

--To look at each person I meet as a person, not a job or annoyance or problem. To see them in all their terror and potential, to always be ready to see what is beautiful in them.

--To be prepared for whatever happens at my workplace, and to not freak out no matter what goes down. Christ is sovereign, and He is with me, and if this means pointing me in a new direction work-wise, then I need to be able to say "Yes, Lord," and follow.

--To learn again, and more, what I learned last year: that I can let go of pain and loneliness and fear, because He really is trustworthy, and He really has/is/will continue to make me holy, and beautiful, and in His image. I love Him like nothing else, but sometimes it's much easier to try and control things by myself.

--To figure out what it means to be a big sister to little sisters, since I only had brothers older than 5 before I left home. Now I've got a preteen sister, and she really values my regard and opinions and it's really weird and cool and new, especially since I see her about twice a year. Heh.



"I know whom I have believed, and I am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him until that day." 2 Timothy 1:12
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From:fpb
Date:January 2nd, 2006 06:53 pm (UTC)
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A prayer group orientated towards HOLLYWOOD??? Ambitious, aren't you?
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 2nd, 2006 07:12 pm (UTC)
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*raises Spock-like eyebrow*

What's that supposed to mean? I do live in Los Angeles, you know. And while my stated reason for being here (not remotely my home city, you know) is that I want to write screenplays or TV, my secondary (spritually, primary) reason for being here is that Christians have left Hollywood alone for far too long. Talk about your unreached people groups...most of the industry things of Christians only as know-it-alls who make a fuss and try to boycott their projects.

We should be known as fellow artists, and as people who love those who everyone else considers unworthy of love. As Christ did.

So I'm here. And it would be nice to join with some fellow Hollywood believers to pray for our city and our industry. God can do impossible things--I've seen that with my own eyes. No reason He can't work a few miracles here. :-D No reason not to be ambitious in wanting people to know Him or see His name lifted higher here than any celebrity's.
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From:fpb
Date:January 2nd, 2006 07:22 pm (UTC)
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Absolutely. And good luck to you. But I cannot imagine a more unlikely target group since those missionaries who tried it with cannibal tribes. My view of Hollywood is to be found in these entries: http://www.livejournal.com/users/fpb/131920.html, http://www.livejournal.com/users/fpb/133218.html and http://www.livejournal.com/users/fpb/135279.html. (You have actually read the latter, I notice.) If you sum them up, you will see that, for historical and cultural reasons, I do not think that Christianity, or even basic common sense and morality of any sort, stands much of a chance there.
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From:kerravonsen
Date:January 2nd, 2006 09:09 pm (UTC)
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But I cannot imagine a more unlikely target group since those missionaries who tried it with cannibal tribes.

All the more reason to do it, then.
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From:fpb
Date:January 3rd, 2006 10:51 am (UTC)
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Indeed, and pardon my levity.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:January 2nd, 2006 11:20 pm (UTC)
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But I cannot imagine a more unlikely target group since those missionaries who tried it with cannibal tribes.

That's precisely the reason that no one has *tried* to reach them, and also why they are the people I believe God has directed me towards.

Also, there is a difference between Hollywood-the-industrial-entity and Hollywood-the-people. I agree (heck, even the secular people who work in it would agree) that the industry is messed up, in artistry and economics and many other ways. I don't know whether it's salvagable as it is now.

That's not the real point, though I certainly would love to be a part of getting better films made, better TV on the airwaves (and I don't necessarily mean 'family fare' as if sanitizing life were the purpose of art; but things that present real truth about morality, about the purpose of humanity, about the spirit God has placed in each of us). The people in this industry are gifted, they are loved by God, and they need to know it.

They are looking so hard, most of them, but they don't know where to look to find the real answers. I don't know what part God will lead me to in this, but if I can point just one person to the Light that might otherwise not have noticed it shining, it will have been worth it.

[btw, my church is about half industry professionals...there are more of us out there than most people are aware of.]
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 2nd, 2006 11:22 pm (UTC)
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Whoops. That was me.
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From:kerravonsen
Date:January 2nd, 2006 09:10 pm (UTC)
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Get involved in an intercessory prayer group, preferably Hollywood-focused or LA-focused.

If you don't find one, you may have to start one.

Go you!
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 3rd, 2006 06:11 pm (UTC)
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I know there are a few, but whether they're at times I can attend may be the issue.

Also, there are VERY few...there's something about this city that seems to subtly discourage prayer groups (seriously--one I attended was good but died a slow death over a couple of months despite commitment from attenders. very odd).
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From:mistraltoes
Date:January 3rd, 2006 10:05 am (UTC)
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--Get involved in an intercessory prayer group, preferably Hollywood-focused or LA-focused.

Those are all good goals, but I especially like this one--not especially because of the Hollywood or LA focus, but because group intercessory prayer is important, and cool, and not done enough. I pray you'll be blessed with a way to do it. :)
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 3rd, 2006 06:19 pm (UTC)
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because group intercessory prayer is important, and cool, and not done enough. I pray you'll be blessed with a way to do it. :)

Word, and amen. :-)
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From:reveilles
Date:January 3rd, 2006 05:08 pm (UTC)
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I never did the whole new year's resolution thing, but it seems to be good in the sense that you are sort of offering up a prayer to achieve new personal goals, and being able to look back on the previous year and realize that you have grown is so encouraging!

:) Go for the intercessory prayer group! I have to confess that I sometimes feel a little ashamed when I pray for actors or directors or producers or whatever. I have this irrational feeling that if I shouldn't pray for them because I'm a "fan" of theirs. It's totally stupid and I can't even explain this reluctance. I'm realizing now as I write about this that I probably ought to pray even harder. The enemy doesn't want famous celebrities to know Christ and be very public witnesses of God's redeeming love. All right: one thing I resolve to do this year is to pray more for the people in the entertainment industry! Thanks for bringing this topic into the light. :)

Have a great, God-filled new year!
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 3rd, 2006 06:57 pm (UTC)
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I have to confess that I sometimes feel a little ashamed when I pray for actors or directors or producers or whatever. I have this irrational feeling that if I shouldn't pray for them because I'm a "fan" of theirs. It's totally stupid and I can't even explain this reluctance. I'm realizing now as I write about this that I probably ought to pray even harder.

You do this too? One of the reasons I knew God was pointing me down here was because I've always been drawn to pray for people in entertainment (I once had all the B5 actors on monthly prayer rotation; no, I'm serious).

Also, I don't know how much you believe in the concept of spiritual warfare, but it seems to me that any prayer for Hollywood or the people working there runs into inexplicable reluctance/forgetfulness/what have you. Practically speaking, I think a lot of people are reluctant to put their energy into what seems like a lost cause.

Though after Anne Rice's conversion, I'm starting to believe that God can do anything He pleases, and will. I wonder who was praying for her all these years. :-)

Oh! Check out The Hollywood Prayer Network.
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From:kerravonsen
Date:January 3rd, 2006 07:59 pm (UTC)
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Practically speaking, I think a lot of people are reluctant to put their energy into what seems like a lost cause.

Pratically speaking, bringing any sinner to Christ is a lost cause -- if it weren't for Christ Himself. I have some dear non-Christian friends, whom I should be praying for more, and I get so frustrated because I feel that nothing's happening... If I feel that about people who are nowhere near Hollywood, then what the heck makes Hollywood so "special"? They're all "especially hard". They all require miracles. And God is the god of miracles. There are no lost causes. We just don't have God's patience.
From:(Anonymous)
Date:January 3rd, 2006 09:13 pm (UTC)
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Pratically speaking, bringing any sinner to Christ is a lost cause -- if it weren't for Christ Himself. I have some dear non-Christian friends, whom I should be praying for more, and I get so frustrated because I feel that nothing's happening...

Oh, indeed. I know that feeling well.

If I feel that about people who are nowhere near Hollywood, then what the heck makes Hollywood so "special"? They're all "especially hard".

I fully agree with you. Each individual's salvation is a work of grace--an intervention from God. ["You would not have been calling Me unless I had been calling you."] The only thing that might make people in Hollywood "tougher" is simply that there aren't enough Christians here. It comes down to exactly the same thing, no harder (maybe easier, in some ways, so contrary to many people's views) to a God who constantly works the impossible, and the same in the way He does it, through his people one on one.

There are no lost causes. We just don't have God's patience.

Oh, yes. Yes. I should probably write that on my wall or something, where I'll see it all the time. :-) "For God is not slow, as some understand slowness. He is patient, not wanting anyone to perish, but that all should come to repentance." (I'm sure that's mildly paraphrased.)
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 3rd, 2006 09:14 pm (UTC)
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Uh, that's me. *facepalm*
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From:reveilles
Date:January 4th, 2006 02:32 am (UTC)
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I believe in the concept of spiritual warfare. Shakespeare's "There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy" totally rings true. :)

Did Anne Rice really convert? I read the first couple pages of her "Christ the Lord" and was intrigued, but I'm not sure I want to pay her money for it if it's rubbish. The blurb on the back said something about how the book portrayed Christ as a "nature mystic"--for some definition of that term, he probably could be considered a mysterious person with a definite affect on and affinity with nature (i.e. walking on water, calming the wind and waves, turning water into wine, withering fig trees)--but that just shouts "New Age re-interpretation" at me. Of course, authors have little to no control over the back-cover blurbs; that could just be marketing.
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 4th, 2006 05:09 pm (UTC)
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Did Anne Rice really convert?

Well, only the Lord knows her heart, and I was as skeptical as you when I first heard this (more, maybe). But after hearing some quotes from her about her return to the faith (she was raised Catholic), and then seeing an interview where she had wiser answers about art and faith than some "mature" Christians I know have been able to give, and showed a lot of humility (which I don't believe she was known for, at all, before), and I was impressed. No idea if the book is good, but at the least she seems to be writing out of her newfound love of Christ.
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From:reveilles
Date:January 4th, 2006 02:41 am (UTC)
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Thanks for the HPN link! That's a great way to be actively praying for people in the industry! :)
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From:izhilzha
Date:January 4th, 2006 05:18 pm (UTC)
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You're welcome! :-)
From:(Anonymous)
Date:January 4th, 2006 12:16 am (UTC)
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"I have this irrational feeling that if I shouldn't pray for them because I'm a "fan" of theirs."

But maybe that's *why* you're a fan of a given actor or actress. Something God put in them caught the attention of something God put in you. :-) And you might (and I stress *might*) be the only person moved to pray for said actor/actress (producer, director, writer, comedian, painter, whatever).

I'm not nearly as consistent as I should be in my prayer life, but there's something in certain entertainers that speaks to me: their love of life, their natural talent, whatever, and God gave them that, and I'm sadden by the thought that such a spirit could be lost forever.

It does indeed seem to be an exercise in frustration, considering we might not see the results of our prayers until we cross the Jordan, so to speak. And we might not serve the function we want to serve. We might be preparing the land, whereas someone else might do the reaping. But we want to do the reaping, because preparing the land seems so mundane. Does that make sense?

It's like a line I heard a few days ago (in an XF ep) that reminded me of one of Iz's fave SG-1 lines . . . something about not making the difference or having the affect that we *want* to. But we make a difference nonetheless, even if we don't see it or it's not the difference we want to make.

I hope that all made sense.

V.
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From:reveilles
Date:January 4th, 2006 02:25 am (UTC)
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Mostly. :) Thanks for the encouragement!

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